Tuesday, December 27, 2005
Alah emak, kahwin kan aku..
Seems like this holiday is drawing to an end. Tup tup dah nak start school again..But i guess school means i get to see sayang often.heheee..
Had some surprising happening last weekend. Nak gi JB but tersampailah kampung.hehe.. Nasib i m not the one driving.Sampai tertidur tidur..
Entah why her mum is like getting on and picking on sayang. I feel for her so much and the fact that she even defend me..Thank you baby..
I have been thinking about my future with sayang. When we will be graduating etc and all seems to be within the 5 years plan. I thought through and well i actually can finish my studies in 3 years!! Special semester and extra modules of course.. But i guess i have to be determined. Sayang tell me to be patient.. Memang banyak sabar ni..hmmm.. Cobaan memang banyak and i doa yang we both will pull through together.
Next year i rasa will be busy for my sayang and me..maybe too.
It is exciting to actually plan ahead. I can visualise myself back in the fire gear again. Doing something i like and be with someone i love forever. i know sayang worries should i be a firefighter again. I will take care of myself and you dear..Be assured.
Alah emak kahwinkan aku..
Ready for marriage..Financially nope. physically..yes lah..dah besar anak mak ni.. I guess sayang needs me to take her away- or rather sweep her off her feet.
Thursday, December 15, 2005
Langkawi: 7 keturunan, setahun lebih, 6 hari dan satu kepastian.
After almost a week away from home, I m back... Tired, exhausted, flushed but definitely happy, delighted and satisfied.
Thank you sayang, thank you mak... I really had fun. Mummy missed me..Heheheh... Dia tolong hidangkan i makan...maklumlah dah seminggu anak sulong nya takde di rumah...
The trip taught me some things..
We were cheated off our money the very first time we landed at langkawi: van rental fees and eheh..the memorable condominium we rented for a night.heheh..Unforgettable!!
And as usual the makciks and pakciks buy a lot of stuff for their loved pnes back at home.. Macam mana diaorang nak larat angkat ni?? hehhe..Takpe..nasib baik aku ade..boleh juga bantu
angkut.
I was thankful that the whole family receive me with warmth and respect..Pak uda and mak uda, mak busu, cik ema and her husband and sayang's immediate family lah semuanya suka kan i..Alhamdulilah..
The kids and sayang cuzs were great lah..Crappy and all. Semua takut jugak dgn i..heehee.. al maklumlah yang paling dewasa among the muda mudi..i guess I know their taste and yet have the responsibility of the adults. Kind of the bridge between the older and younger generations.
Time i spent with sayang is fabulous!! in fact i wish for more..err.. more time on our own but i know that that is kinda impossible since we are in a big group and i need to watch over the kids.. nonetheless we had fun as a group despite the cheatings..makan pun kena tipu..isk isk..
I learnt that sayang is very observant, her woman's instinct very strong. I tak perasan, dia and mak perasan.. Isk isk..nasib i tak layan..cos satu dunia dah tahu..imran sayangkan yati.. *awww..so swit!!!*
Sayang decides that she is ready to buy our couple ring.. Terkejut jap i!! But of cos i m glad that she said she is now darn sure. Me with her and family on holiday and all. " Rugi kalau tak sayang.."
Water sports nya gerek!! Mandi laut di pulau beras basah, mandi tasik dayang bunting, halau monyet..(eh..tu water sport ker? heheh) banana boat ride yang tergolek golek..wah..BEST!!
I semakin sayangkan yati..no matter what people say or feel.. Tak peduli lah..yang penting kita happy bersama..Dah janji nak stay through thick and thin..
Ni dah balik ni penat dah rasa hilang juga..cuma sengal sengal sikit jer..I m ready to keluar with my sayang!! heheh..nak tengok dia pakai seluar yang baru beli..nice!!! Too bad sayang masih penat..Let her rest dulu lah..
Friday, November 18, 2005
Who am I?? delusion or purely stress??
Well, I m currently in the middle of my exams. Should be mugging but what the heck am I online updating my blog? Hmm..
Just had my 1st paper today..Jitters are slowly dissipating away.. Hmm..I m kinda troubled..Feeling miserable..Dont know why.Its is just purely stress or am I delusioned by all the happenings around me. I wanna go to the movies- no I m not watching Harry Potter.. sayang dont like it..Shall watch a movie before depart for vacation.
Truthful speaking, I cant wait for the vacation overseas, tak jauh..dekat jer.. But the feeling of being away from Spore and everything..school, work, mat and minah and makcik kaypoh is just to hard to resist. I look forward to spending time sight-seeing, lazing around and enjoy the sun, sand and the sea with my sayang.
Sometimes, I m too expressive and tend to speak too much. I hope I have not offended anyone especially those very dear to me..My family, sayang and her family are dear to me... I dont want to lose any of them..I want them to be by my side.
I never like to get into squabbles and argument and I never like the feeling of being ignored. Its not that I to feel important.. I just want..just want..just want...Perhaps all this are just tests for me..I give myself pressure, do I? I dont really know...
I just know that I love sayang..and pardon me if I like to express it openly and boldly.. jangan jeles. kwa kwa kwa..
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Me from the mediocre society
Mediocre= Ala kadar...
I m beginning to seriously think i m in that state now.. Wah, my course mates are like way ahead of me..
I m like slightly below average..Haiz..got to buck up I guess..
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Why the hatred??
I have all the bitching and talking behind our backs. If u r not happy just tell us so.No need for hate mail and gossips and the HUGE animosity stirred withing the rest..
I hate being in this position..Stuck in between. People are aware thatthere is something wrong but they just refuse to werk it out among themselves.Semuanya dengan kepala batu sendiri..Asssume, presume and terus tuduh menuduh..
Just bcos u see something or dont see something..dont mean it is like that..Wat the heck...Ppl just dont realised the mess they make sometimes and who ACTUALI clean up THEIR mess. I sometimes kinda regret being where I m and not bcos I dont feel for the group but bcos it is no longer as fun as it use to be. Seems like everyone thinks he/he is better than anyone else, can be better, faster, stronger etc..
I have never been this close to an organisation before and this is definitely not a so-wonderful experience..Kinda make me think umpteen times in future before I EVER get myself involve again. i guess I see and feel for myself the REASON why malays shunned from such roles..
Kenapa mesti ada hasad dengki, keji, sindiran sinis..Ini semua permainan bahasa..melayu sajer yang begitu ke?
Thursday, August 25, 2005
Sweetie cooked me lunch
Oh my..lunch on Wednesday was like no other...Something yg i look fwd to..Syg cooked me black pepper chicken for lunch..aawww..so sweet.
Nice lah of cos!!!and after which we revise together..lebih semangat to blaja sesama..
Sayang!!! masak for me lagik!!!
Sunday, August 21, 2005
Good morning Spore!! err..not so good for me...
Well, rite now i m in school lib..woke up late today so i kinda sleep only at 5am this morning..trying to do some assignments and lab reports. Oh my..Sayang was pissed at me cos I woke late..
Hmm..bingitlah and she took the train w/o waiting for me...Tried to pujuk but she just ignore me..I m really sorry but I just terlajak tidur..
When i was online yesterday, got to chat a while with afren of ours whom we got so worried about the past week.Seems like she is coping..I hope so..And she was telling me about how beatiful the place was..Haiz..i wish i could go too..hehehe..but fret not cos I have langkawi to look forward too with my sayang!!!
Rite now, i just really hope sayang is no longer mad at me..the way she talk to me and reply was msgs was really...errr..scary..
Sorry dear for waking up late..
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
the NEW me!!!
I m back here blogging after quite some time. Many things have happened over the past few weeks. Things which I never thought possible in the first place.
With the support of my honey, yati I just go for it and I guessed they have faith in my leadership. I m now the president of my association-great responsibility and quite a space to fill in.. Nonetheless I m relieved that I have full support from sayang and also my exco members.. Sayang is SO understanding, even though she nags at times...I can understand.. I m trying my best to juggle time and I did it!!! Pls GOD, give me the strength and durability to stand strong against your challenges. I m sure sayang is proud of me-this may not be possible without her.
I had a change of image!!! that shocked/surprise many..hehehe..
"Hey Imran!! more colours now huh??" " colours matching matching sey.." "baju lawa siak"
Just some of the comments I got.. I got to thank my sayang for helping me out. Its been long since I want to have a change in my dressing. No more dark and dull colours..hehehe...pastel and bright colours is IN!!
I m also thankful to GOD for HE has bestowed me with happiness-family, girlfriend (future wife, i pray for that) I dont need great riches- normal life with a fabulous life partner suffice-- ALA KADAR kata org melayu..
No, I m not being mediocre. I m just being thankful. Cos I have learnt something in the past 22 years of my life-if u have an extra of something, u will surely want less of something else.
My sayang is beginning to mature with age.. She think of her future and work towards what she wants. I like that. I want her to succeed too..Women of today should also be successful in their own ways.I want her to have the pride of telling our children how successful a careerwoman she was..She has big plans, and I m supportive of them.
I have to say again how fortunate I m to have met a girl like sayang...Love u honey..
Friday, July 01, 2005
The Search is ON...
Well i m online now..Was searching for nice places to bring my sayang out for a meal.. Dont want her to feel upset after she took the trouble to get the day off.. Hope she is happy with my choice of where to dine..Hmm...I m wondering how the place is like to ..Never been there..I think it is worth the try.Keep my fingers crossed then.
Just happen to blog-surf..Some of my friends linked to my blog is no longer updating..Busy I supposed, just like me a weeks back..When i happen to click on a blog I havent gone for quite sum time..wasnt updated lah..It struck me suddenly..Didnt sayang says he wrote getting his pay on his blog..Hmm??? strange tho..I didnt see any updates..salah blog kot??
Niwae..esok I will be having some filming..Jadi mat motor..Isk!! wat a role to act..hehehe..
And then will be meeting sayang..for a HOT date!!! Cant wait!!! Cant sleep!! eheheh
Sayang mesti ngah tido nyenyak now..3.30am now..She is tired..darn tired, i know...
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
I LOVE ATIE..very much!!!
Dear blog..hehehe..sounds so like dear diary.. It is almost 5am thursday morning and I cant seem to get to sleep..So i just decide to go online.Wat's wrong with me??? Seems like past few days i have not been able to sleep well. Strangely I dont feel lethargic and able to do my usual chores prety well and awake.. Someone tell me why..I cant make it out..
But i m sure on one thing..I really love my sayang.. See the picture to the left? Nice rite? nothing beats having atie by my side - meeting her and seeing her smile cures everything. Headaches seems to go away, hunger pangs just disappear etc. She makes me whole again. She has become part of myself. Taking her away from me means tearing me apart.
Tempat ku mencurah kasih..tempat ku bermanja..tempat ku mengadu...
Gadis yang mengembalikan senyuman di bibirku
Gadis yang ku ingin tatap wajahnya selalu
Gadis pilihan yang tiada ganti
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Mixed up feelings within me..
I want my sayang to talk it out with me..even though she dont know how and what to react. I want my sayang to comfort me when i feel sad and down..
and I know sayang can do all that..she is capable of doing all that.
I really want to go on a date with sayang..
I was looking fwd to it...I am furious with the management lah...or is it their fault at all?
The thought of the saturday plan keep me going on and anxiously awaits the weekend. The days pass by so so so slowly when I m doing nothing but rotting at home. I know it is not your fault sayang and perhaps it is fated..hhmm...Dont have to feel sorry yah? Hope dat we can spend some other time to make up for the lost time..
"kekawan tanya aku..ehh..kau masih keje pat lama?..aku selamba jer jawab..now keje tmpt lain..keje tak bergaji..heheh"
I kinda envy my sayang working..Is envy the right word?I m not sure myself..Pity her too..Long hours..troublesome customers.. and far away from home. And me? currently jobless and clueless at times.Sayang finds the issue of resigning a taboo and refuses to talk about it at all...I m not sure why..Me always supportive of her and also look ahead of time in her interest...Just wanna the best for her and us..
Wat I should do now?
I guess I should be more supportive.More than what I m now, i guess. My feelings for her never fade; it grows stronger with the times. I guess sooner or later, everyone will see and realised what I had foreseen earlier. People say "seeing is believing" and "nothing beats experiencing it yourself"
I plan to have an outing with sayang before she resume school..Hope we can squeeze in a weekend before the end of the month..Kinda impossible but if we dont try, we wont know huh? BE POSITIVE BRUDDER!!!! hehehe
Along getting married!!!
Hmm..someone else getting married but I m excite for her..hehehe...wonder why...feels like my own sister..Never had an elder sis..I decided to help her out whatever I can...Niwae my sayang's family is like my own now..They all make me feel family.Mak, nenek, Ain, Firda, along, angah and kak rina..all seems understanding of me and sayang...I trully like that feeling. Mummy and daddy and nenek is no different..Supportive nonetheless.
I m so happy for along..wish her great happiness in times to come..till forever
Hello...
I m back blogging after missing for quite some time..oh yes!!! I got the part time job and now I m jobless again..
Many things happenned to me these past few weeks which I m slowly learning why..
Fussy customers..being difficult and grappling with other facts of life..
But I m damn sure of the fact that I love Atie very much..and of cos the feeling gets stronger by the day.It is great to see even though most of the time I meet her is after she finishes work late... Thanks for the effort of making me feeling nice..Smiles and such..I know U r tired dear....hmm..so i guess accompanying u home heals ur tiredness..
Very soon both of us will start schooling again yah..I really hope we will get to spend enough time together..
Ok peeps..will share more of my thoughts later..
Wednesday, May 04, 2005
.: i queued a whole two hours :.
Well, yesterday i went for my first job interview.An attempt to get a job and fill up my free time in the next few weeks..Queue was long just as the clock strikes 2pm. And I waited and waited.. A whole 2 hours before I had my turn for the interview..heheh..which is like 10 mins or less?
ehhehe..hope to get the job...60-70 ppl going after 20 positions?hmm...chances are still there isn't it?
Tuesday, May 03, 2005
.: its not easy to be me :.
Its not easy to be me...
But i want to be me...wont allow anyone to be me
I am aware its not an easy task..i never expect it to be easy
Despite all that I will remain strong.
Being away isn't gonna be easy..
Looking away just makes it harder.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
.: exams are almost over :.
I am so so glad that I have only 1 paper left!! Hmm...came out with a list of things to do... Just to name a few:
1. Buy cloth to tailor my "baju"
2. Develop photographs
3. Complete Sweethearts
4. Get a JOB!!
5. Cook pasta
6. Get home "safely" after a week in Selangor
7. Shopping for new clothes??
blah blah..
Cant wait to have a relaxing time...but doing nothing? hmm..need a job man!!
Need to start saving upfor lotsa things...Hmm..
Monday, April 25, 2005
.: jangan tinggal daku :.
sesingkat masa itu, aku dahagakan kasih sayang mu
belaian manja mu..
itulah kenyataan kehidupan..
kepahitan harapan..
engkaulah lambang cinta ku
daku akur kehendak tuhan..akur takdir illahi
ku terima kesemua dengan redha
tika ku hampir tenggelam
badan ini di mamah kepanasan bara
engkau hulurkan tangan mu..
Sunday, April 24, 2005
.: run faster, jump higher, throw futher, shout louder :.
"Kita berlari kan terus berlari"
Running away is not the solution to solving problems
I will tell myself that
"Cahayanya terang, berikan kau perlindungan"
I seek solace and refuge from the hardships of life
I seek shelter
I shall seek out for those whom I loved and those who love me.
"Sebagai pengingat teman, juga sebagai jawapan semua tantangan"
Remind me of all those that I have wronged
I am the way I am for what I was not in the past
I have the answers to all your questions
But do you have the answers to mine?
Run faster, jump higher, throw futher, shout louder
I ought to be seen, heard and felt.
.: beginning of my exams again *sigh* :.
Well havent been blogging here since hmm..a month ago. Been busy lah with school stuff and personal life. Hmm..
Sometimes I feel urghh..bu then things will just take a sudden turn.. and i am like Aahhh.. Sounds weird huh?I m going bonkers..
Sayang..help me..
.: i really want to *sigh* :.
Sometimes i really want to but i just dont know how..
How to...
How to..
How to.
Hmm..I know I have to be strong..I know I can be strong..
It all just for her..
Monday, March 07, 2005
.: i believe i had the say, i trust my choice :.
After some time, suddenly I was reminded of the past esp the past three years...N I was reminded of some ugly incidents nearer to "supposedly" happy days. Arguments, disputes, disagreement, unhappiness etc..
Sometimes i feel scared of losing her..I dun wanna the past to repeat..I simply cant.Why? cos i have put in much commitment, effort and time..I have built the trust..i believe ties that bind shall last an eternity.
At times, insecurities surrounds me.I just cant help it.I m just human. Jealousy, stress, ignorance etc..I never know how but I keep it low..I dun wish to be "bunga".I dun wish to be weak..I dun want to be beaten by my own miseries.What doesnt kill me just makes me stronger.
Dun ever think I will walk away..dun ever think I will leave...dun ever..cos i want to stay here and i do, cos i choose to.Not bcos i have to..I have made my choice and i believe i made the right choice.
She believe in me..I definitely have faith in her..We want it to be this way..We choose the path to take, we choose becos we want to and what we want is to seek happiness.
I know she will be by my side when i need her.She gives me strength to carry on..She is the ray of hope and happiness. Promise me...she will be there..she will wait for me..she will...
I have long left the past. I have always look forward to the future..Dun ever question my choice, dun ever question why it is this way..Everyone deserves a choice and I had made mine. I choose to seek happines..I choose to love and be loved..I choose to wake up every morning knowing that she will always care.
I know my feelings for her are genuine..I could tell it is true..I am not afraid to say it loud..I am never fearful of what others may say..Cos I know I had to the right to choose and I choose it to be this way.
Sunday, March 06, 2005
.: it has been quite a week :.
Well dear, I guess many things did happened this week...Severals firsts...
- late night supper
- weekend quick getaway
- angah's car
- meeting in campus
It has been such a great week despite you being upset over the results..*hush* dear..
I will be around whenever you need me.
We will work it out together
hhmm...cant wait till next weekend...got more lined up!!!
Thursday, March 03, 2005
.: i know u r worried, remember i m always here for you :.
Tomorrow is the day that my sayang is getting her results. The past few days have been nerve recking for her. I know u r worried dear...but just keep in mind that whatever the results gonna be, I m here still by your side.Nothing gonna change that fact.
Have faith in yourself. You have given your best and that is what matters. Even though I would very much would like to see you in campus, no pressure yah dear?
I had meeting after school again today. Tried hard to end in earlier than normal..heeheh.. Wanna meet my gurl for supper before I get home. Glad she could make it..
I just got to meet you dear..Wanna assure you that you will be fine. Trust me..
Get in touch with me yah, when u have received your results..
I really love the song that you have dedicated to me...
"Dangerously in love"
The lyrics to the song is definitely very meaning ful to us. But on the contrary, we are not dangerously in love..hehehe..it is 100% safe..
Just to share a bit from the song...
"..You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and mixed up world
I am in love with you
You set me free
I can't do this thing
Called life without you here with me.."
Monday, February 28, 2005
.: it is so saddening and stressful, i mean the tests :.
Oh my god, having a test again today and it is a whole lot of marks!! 40% of my total final grades..I m damn freaking out now..Well, tried to study last night until I was found sprawling on the floor..hehehe...
For an unknown reason, I will hmm..rather uneasy today..Just dont know why...Just get back to my revision now, I guess..
I m really glad we chatted this morning, sayang...*hugz*
Sunday, February 27, 2005
* u are my heart and soul *
Just for you dear...
Dont you just love this feeling..
I wake up every morning knowing that
I love someone and I m loved by someone
The feeling in me is just awesome..beyond words
I feels so fortunate to have you by my side
I feel the warmth, the care, the affection...
Nothing could ever replace that...
You make my day...
When I m down, you are there to cheer me up,
You are so dear to me...
I just could not imagine how I would cope without you.
You are my heart and soul..
You are everything that I would wish for
Hmm....
.: admitted..hehehe.. :.
Yes dear...we shall remember 27th February 2005..the day that you finally admit it..Must have been a difficult task huh?hehe.. but i know the truth dear..just that i wanna hear with from your own mouth.
U r not worth it?hmmm..cant equate you with money...Can always find money somewhere, somehow but just cant find this love we have elsewhere...this has to be it..No mistakes about it.
Well, never planned to go out with my sayang on Saturday..but ehem..thanks for cuming over..Well, Along, welcome to my place! hehehe...pandai awak berbual..cari topik eh?
Hmmm...
I m so excited..hehehe..finally decided wat to get for her bday gift...in fact..got it already..hmm..i like it!!
Thursday, February 24, 2005
.: this what i call the term break :.
today marks the last day of my 4 days term break..why cant they just make it until friday?..sigh..hate it to go back skool just for another day in the week..wat to do..hehehe
she seems moody last night..just went offline all of a sudden.So i thought just drop by to give a surprise.Niwae, kinda miss her too. Walked in slowly and touched her cheeks..oh boy..how surprised and happy she was to see me. We spent the day just chit chatting and watching several DVDs..Had a simple lunch (thanks to ain) and plenty of junk food.I must not grow fat, dear..hehehe.Oh yah..she was fine upon meeting me..hehe..I should be a doctor lah instead..
Quality time we got today, since i was free and had completed most of my assignments for the week (hmm...think got 2 more left..hehe..never mind, i have the weekend to complete)
The time spent today was a fruitful one, chat about stuff...funny stories etc..and of cos DVDs.
Did some art work too later in the evening..Have been quite some time since I last did some decoration stuff and make it more meaningful this time is that I did it together with my sweetheart..Hmmm...
Also thanks to her mummy and the whole lot of people there for the hospitality all this while..Feel like being part of the family.
"...embrace all the moments we spend, the thoughts we share, the things we care.. and on top of it all the love that we have for each other..."
Monday, February 14, 2005
~ thank you dear for the great gift !!! ~
I shall remember this day for a long long time..
I have this planned for quite some time..shall not reveal the details lah..hehehe..but we never ever fail to plan or plan to fail.
Even though there were some hiccups due to some unforeseen circumstances, I just had to use my contigency plans...Used it all untill the very last one..hehehe...send it down myself in the evening..Was fortunate enuf that she was home by then..Oh well dear..u know wat i meant *winks*
A pink rose for you as a symbol of my love..and of cos the colourful accompanying card..And the photo didnt pop out as i have made it to..heheh..guess it had waited a bit too long inside the envelope.heheh.
No doubt we spent like barely 10 mins, I m glad we could still squeeze some time..Thanks dear..
U know what? mY sayang did made something for me..WOW!! it is really nice..really appreciate the effort (sleepless nites...)
I will wear it out one day dear..just for your sake..ehhehe..bright yellow with the tag, "I love my gurl" and "atie".
Wanna see it? here it goes...
Sayang, i m glad that things are getting better on your side..perhaps this what it is meant by "ada rahmat disebaliknya".
Saturday, February 12, 2005
.: try, trying, tried :.
Past few days have been a trying time..To test whether I m really in love with her...She has her own set of difficulties.would very much to help but on 2nd thought, better not cos may make it worse..I just can help pray that things would turn out better at home for her.
9 feb is a day i shall not forget for quite a while...the day that my sayang blew up..Oh My GOD..it is really scary..and i felt really helpless cos i became very much the victim. That day was the day that I drove her home faster than EVER before..
It is really nerve recking experience..Just so worried dat she will say harsh things which will hurt..Just worried for us..I know she is having a difficult time..Oh god please help her through this..
I m so glad that we talk things through..I love her very much..and dont want things to go bad...never ever will i let it go without trying..NEVER..
I have come to understand her better..and be more accomodating to her feelings and actions...well you wont know untill u had it right?
And so at the end..wat do I discover? that I m very still very much in love with my sayang and things like this wont just deter me away...Shall keep it strong dear..
Monday, February 07, 2005
- surprise !!! -
start of the week and BANG!!..i dont feel too good...ain said i looked kinda "lesu"..I guess i was..had the runs..wat did i eat wrong? heheh...
well, just hack the last lecture for the day and get back home..niwae there is live webcast to be watched at home...
So dropped by my sayang's school on my way back..just to surprise her..oh boy....she was SURPRISED !!! chocolates to cheer her up a bit...i know the kids are rowdy and noisy..just bear with them yah? that is why they are called kids...heheh..Perhaps i can share some tips on class control??? heheh...
had sumthing..hopefully will contain and control my slight diarrhoea...no fever..so ok lah as for now...will get better..MUST get better...CNY cuming so gotta celebrate!!!
Saturday, February 05, 2005
~ learning from the past* ~
I would agree with the statement..putting all the differences aside and dump all the excessive baggage. Life is like a journey and u learn from every step u take. I believe things that do not kill a man just makes him stronger..
"..buang yang keruh, ambil yang jernih.."
No amount of words shall substantiate the feelings i have for u dear...god knows though.. Thanks once again (even tho u say i dont have to) for being part of my life now...
Hmm..plans...seems a very good one..who knows when the moolah will come in handy? heheh..Love u lots..
pesta pantun saringan- menjual beli?
hmm..a start to pesta pantun 2005. had three prelimyinary session today...
Lemau sey for a while..
Sorrie dear for suggesting that u come along..i know u were kinda bored cos kurang rancak..hehehe..
I was the cameraman for the day so I guess it got plenty of photos to share..
here goes...
well..nothing much to write..just pics..guess pictures speaks a thousand words...
Wednesday, February 02, 2005
.: walking down memory lane :.
hhmmm..wat an eventful day it has been today.. first me and yat threw a surprise visit to filja's place..someone's turning 19 very very soon..hmmm..cute teddy was what we bought her..eww...so cutee.....heheheh
So drop by her place as a surprise..she was surprised !! indeed..haha..didnt expect me there..thot yat was cuming alone..hhee..sollie gurl...would not have been a surprise if u have known earlier..
Well, took a stroll down memory lane today..Back to where we "mugged" for exams...but this time just to chill...And we took some pictures..sorry that some turned out blur..i guess i need a tripod stand for stability..ehh try my best oready..ehhe..
And then of cos the esplanade!! cool place..even tho nothing much to see except for the "puking" merlion and the thorny "durian"..
What a day today has been..hectic...(but got time still to revise and do assignments..ehhehe) and enjoyable of cos (esp when my sayang is around).
Oh well, where else shall we make a trip to in the next episode of "walking down memory lane"? hmmm..ideas? muahahah...
Monday, January 31, 2005
# wat is wrong with me? *
Did i wake up on the wrong side of the bed this morning?or is it just the time?too early? arghhh..hehhe..
Weee...I guess this week I have got to catch up on quite a lot of stuff...kinda lost a bit for the past three weeks..Since this week having slightly more free time, shall make full use of it. Monday blues sets in, i think..
Just do seem to feel right..But I dont wish to venge it on others..just not fair for me to do so..just keep it low lah..it will go away (of cos..it will!!!) So wat is wrong?i dont really know...
But what i know now is that I am feeling slightly better than this morning..Thank god!!
Well, this saturday will be helping out in Pesta Pantun (annual event)..vivid memories of me participating in my college days..champions!!! i cant believe it myself..haha..
Ahhh..feeling a bit better now..
Saturday, January 29, 2005
*~ Finally the weekend is here ~*
Yeyey...i simply lurve the weekend..time to unwind and meet my sayang..heheh..saying as though I have never met her in ages!! oh gosh!! *wink* (U know what I m getting at, dear)
My sayang was clad in purple today..oh my..she is SO gorgeous!!! with the stylo mylo tudung and heels. My heart skipped a beat..hehehe
We decided to just chill today, purposefully.. So we start off the series of the places to hang out with the place where it all ends..or is it where it all started...hmmm..great memories to the place especially the arrival hall..Just take a stroll down memory lane and just chat..wow, we have plenty to talk and share about..
Cum to think about it..we have plenty of memorable places to visit..yerlah..kenangan masa "silam".Too bad the viewing gallery was blocked off, we could not see too much of the "view" there...
So i thot, since we are there why dont i bring her to my old hometown..and have dinner there.. dah lama tak ke sini...nyce food yum yum...Well, sorry to some of the 3pe guys cos we could not join u..hhmmm, kinda out of the way and it is getting late. Al maklum, tak baik hantar anak dara orang balik lambat..
I m so glad that her mum is so understanding and is open enuf to converse with.So we did talk about few stuff..errmmm...she did most of the talking and I just chip in when necessaryand my sayang?..did most of the sleeping? hehe...
(Kalau orang tua ngah cakap jangan menyampuk..hehehe)
Looks like I would not have any problem with her family and mine...Harap harap things will be just fine, insyallah..
Thursday, January 27, 2005
Wat a mess things have been this week...
Well, i m into the third week of the semester.And things are just getting hotter!! I m just about to settle down with my life again I and shot down by not 1, not 2 but 3 projects!!!
OMG!!! why cant i jus learn how to say no?
My overseas expedition with PBM kinda have some problems initially..needs a whole revamp and kinda pissed initially..but then again..when i think about it...yah, why not just make do with the new plans.hehe..Fun people are coming onboard to lend me their support.Really thankful to them despite that some of my members decided to abandone the project for some reason or another..Well, they dont owe me anything...so I cant really chased them down, cant I?
Hmm..had a meeting for 3J today..I could see we making good progress..People are cooperating, generally..
My IAW carnival project with MS is totally different though..Kinda frustrating when u are squeezed with dateline and u have not even meet ur team members..Had postpone the meeting twice and I think I have to resort to using MSN for discussion..Pathetic rite? I guess our timetable just dont match..heheh
Fortunately, the 3rd project, malam perpaduan..I m not heavily tasked..Lega sikit hamba..
Looking at the bright side I still my loved one by my side.I feel bad sometimes that I may seem stressed and angry at times..Believe me, I m not angry at you..just pissed with some of my campus mates...ArrrgghHHHH..hehehe
Tomorrow will be a better day...I just cant wait for the weekends(around the corner).
HOT DATE!!!!
Wednesday, January 26, 2005
Sway
When marimba rhythms start to play
Dance with me, make me sway
Like a lazy ocean hugs the shore
Hold me close, sway me more
Like a flower bending in the breeze
Bend with me, sway with ease
When we dance you have a way with me
Stay with me, sway with me
Other dancers may be on the floor
Dear, but my eyes will see only you
Only you have that magic technique
When we sway I go weak
I can hear the sounds of violins
Long before it begins
Make me thrill as only you know how
Sway me smooth, sway me now
Shall we dance, my dear?
Hold me close..dont let me go..
I guess we should start learning ballroom dancing after much inspiration..hehehe.
Tuesday, January 25, 2005
.: resah dan gelisah?.. usah begitu sayang :.
daku termenung sejenak..akan kehidupan ini
apakah benar segala yang didepan mata
adalah kebenaran?
ataupun khayalan?
..menyilapkan mata
hati ini resah..gelisah melihat diri mu ini
di pukul badai..gelombang rasa
izinkan ku harungi bersama..
gelora di hati kan sama ditempuhi
daku selalu disamping
suka dan duka, seiring dan sehaluan
ku pilih bersama mu
tiada paksaan..tiada gesaan
hanya aku disini membuat pilihan.
-mat jiwang-
Monday, January 24, 2005
Everytime I look into your eyes...
I just love her who who she is,
not for what I expect her to be,
not for what others expect of me.
Just shower her with the love, care and concern, no reasons asked.
When I look back in time,
the times we share brought back countless memories.
Bitter, sweet.. and even..
The very first moment...
Never knew what makes me pick up the phone and dial..
I guess we just kinda click the very first time we met.
Never knew what was brewing deep down inside me.
Never knew the feeling will grow so strong.
Never knew how to put it through.
So I guess I will just keep it low and somehow, pull through.
I realised I cant keep it down, cos it keeps getting around.
My feelings never actually fade, I thought I could just escape.
Actions just speaks louder than words.
Denials it could be but everything else shines through
I could not run away, stay away...
cos deep inside I dont want to.
No matter what I did, how hard I try, I guess they could still see me through.
I guess, it is within me...then again I was in denial.
I sense the feeling is mutual..
I sense you are denying it too..
I thank my guardian angel, who came from above.
Gave me wisdom, direction and guided me...
I believe god wanted it this way.
Things take a turn, denying no more..
I guess it pays off to be true, expressing it all from within.
It takes two to tango...
The bond between is so strong, feelings was deep..
Sacrificies...in the pursuit of happiness
Everytime I be with you, time seems to fly by fast.
The smile on your face... the touch of love,
brings up the rays of hope and happiness within me.
I shall not let u go.
I cant promise the world to you..
only to pledge my love, i promise you is true..
You seems to be always on my mind
Calling out your name brings glitter
Bringing an instant smile even though we are apart.
Those fond memories have brought us through..
I pray we would remain true,
without you life would not do..will just not be the same.
In these times we strive..
remember I am always by your side,
support,care, affection and most importantly be there when u need me to.
I know you will too
Through thick and thin, we shall make it through
Kepada illahi aku memanjat doa..
Semoga hubungan ini direstuiNya dan tetap utuh
walaupun dipukul badai.
Daku redha ketentuanNya..hanya berharap...
Insyallah.
You know I love you and my feelings are true...
Sunday, January 23, 2005
"Miracles do happen.when it does, thank god for it"
Do you believe in miracles?even if it is not some spectacular feat..at least your daily life?
I think many things have took a turn for me in the last 3 months or so.And when i look back at it, it is just so intriguing how things can just changed all of a sudden.
I thought i have found what i was searching for..then it just dont work out the way i plan it to be. well that was in the past.
I m now looking forward to the future.hhmm..people say we never plan to fail but fail to plan right? hmmm..kinda discreet rite?
Reliving medan - Touch down @ Polonia Airport
The flight was pretty fine plus some extra inflight entertainment and food: jokes from our mr joker yusman and sharing of "roti john" from dzul!!
Short flight of approximately 2 hours..
quick snap before take off
The roads of medan was just about like in Malaysia..pretty much the same lah..But what greeted us at the pesantren was very much to my surprise and delight.We were greeted with much warmth and seems to be the talk of town. Students came lined up to receive us. There is even a welcome dance.
ler..just outside the airport
filja and i on the bus from polonia airport to PPMDH
students waiting upon our arrival
tarian selamat datang
"Sungguh terharu apabila ketibaan kami diterima dengan sungguh meriah.."
Lunch served was great!! Local delicacy. Mingled around with the teachers and the local reporters..well, we need to adapt and blend in witht the local community fast..
local treat..yum yum..
mingling with the staff..
I feel much at peace being here..funny but true.I was miles away from home, away from my family but these people just make feel part of their family and this is like my home..
A formal ceremony was held to mark the start of our stay there and we had a session of introduction and get to know session.Personally, i feel that the children there are a protected lot : well behaved etc.
nasyid performance
pak anwar giving kata kata aluan..
This is just day 1. A good start and making good progress with what we had in mind..Hmmm, I am gonna enjoy my stay here.
Saturday, January 22, 2005
Reliving medan - the setting off
From Singapore we set off to medan in a quite stylish manner..big bag and bulky boxes and to top it of, a whole lot of family and friends to send us off..hehe.
Sempat we berempat posing ngan banner bawah blok anwar..tunggu yati ler
2 of my uni frens( ayu and dilz) ..apparently some came late..heheh..so swet of them to see me off
I never once thought that I would be on this flight.I and think I have managed to convinced myself,and the rest that I am ready for an overseas "mission".I still remember the days when we have long meetings etc..But i think it is worth the effort..I m just so excited to see what we will be doing.
Here we are before we actually set off
look at the gurl on the right..does the wink looks familiar?hhmmmm..
A whole new dimension, culture and meeting new people.
Friday, January 21, 2005
Salam Aiduladha buat semua..
This raya have been slightly different..heheh..Y? cos I get to celebrate it with 2 families..nope, not my in-laws (not married yet). What a way to get to know each other better..At least we will feel comfortable with each other.
Strangely, i am still very much awake even though today has been going around.Hmm..perhaps i was just thinking..But why must he do that..Just to spite her? or just plainly upset..I guess it is both.Saw the tag on the blog..Never mind..let's dont get personal.
On the positive note, it really shows who is worthy of our love, care and attention. Ever wonder who your Mr/Miss right is? He/she may just be by your side without you realising. It just comes to you without you knowing, usually.At least it DID occur to me.
Yikes..think just get a nap before sunrise..Got chores to do in the morning..Maybe wash my bike?hmmm..perhaps, perhaps, perhaps.
Tuesday, January 18, 2005
Me and my sayang...*winks* ohhh..
HArlow!!!
I dont know wat got into me..Just kinda interested to pour my joy and grief thru the blog..Good way to release tension huh?
Thanks to my sayang...help me change my layout...love you so much yat..
Cant really think how I would cope with all the troubles brewing in school without her support and encouragement..
Things sometimes the way u had expected it to be but that doesn't mean it is the ned of the world rite?
yup...will update this as much as i can..when i have the time.ciao!!
